What Goes On In My Heed!!!

Just looking through the recent posts trying to catch/keep up and found one by Tea Lover about Cartlionel's Anthem.

That put the question in my head which I now put to you:

What would be YOUR anthem? or put another way: What would be your signature tune? Which song or piece of music describes you the best?

And why?

I think mine would have to be one that I commented about on sminchin's blog:

Cathy Dennis - Too Many Walls

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I had my window open today and a fly came in through it. And as I watched bang it's head against the glass, it started me thinking:

How come all these flying creatures (flies, moths, wasps etc) have the brains to fly in through an open window, but not fly out through one???

Hmmm

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Well I've been very dry on the writing creativity front recently, but I felt I had to write something, so here goes.

Bought a shopping trolley yesterday to help me because of my weak arm, and it is perfect for the job. I have to say a very big "thank you" to Devilish Jelly Beanz for the idea

I've been booked to play at a celebration on the 26th September so I've something to look forward to.

Signed up for Sky to be installed on the 8th. Problem now is that because my flat is leasehold (I own the inside but not the outside), I've got to ask permission to see if I can put a dish up.

Still trying to do my 3 daily positives, but it's hard work and not getting any easier

Well I think that's it for now

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As you can probably see I've added another link to my blog for my favourite television personality, the LEGENDARY Greg Scott.

(please check out Variety RPG as well - members needed pleeeeeeease!)

Anyway thought you might like to see why I like this guy so much and why in my humble opinion he is the best thing to EVER happen to live television.

So here is typical Greggles:

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After much trying and trying and trying with that damn video I posted yesterday, I have deleted it.

I am sick and tired of programs running slow or stopping, crashes, messages saying "this program is not responding," countless pressing of the "end program" option and not getting anywhere, reboot after reboot after reboot. I am ready for throwing this useless "typewriter with an attitude" out of the window at a considerable rate of knots and with considerable force.

It's driving me insane!!!!!!!!!!!

I've scanned it with spyware and antivirus (both up to date) defragged it, checked it for bugs, registry repaired it, all say that there's nothing wrong and yet STILL it sits there (pardon the phrase) taking the out of me. Constantly finding excuses not to do anything.

Lazy bone idle

I am ashamed to say that I've been reduced to tears because of this smug, arrogant, egotistical calculator. thing's probably laughing at me trying to type this. Might even refuse to send it, or crash before I've finished writing it!!!

There's a conspiracy somewhere I'm sure to drive me completely mad and this thing's in on it. If I had another I know that it wouldn't solve anything.

Am I so stupid? Very likely YES

Sorry but I'm going out of my mind because of it

Going for a lie down now.

Wednesday went very well (for a change)

Had my befriender visit in the morning as usual. I told him that I was feeling much better at the moment, which is true, don't know how long it will last but I'm used to good and bad days now.

Anyway after he'd left I went to get a present for my sister in law as it was her birthday yesterday. Spent a short while there, then went for my doctors appointment. I have to go every fortnight just to show that I'm still here and so that she can see how I'm doing.

Now here's where the cunning plan comes in!!!

She's asked me to write down at the end of EVERY day, 3 positive things that have happened in that day. Even if I've had a really horrible day, I still have to find 3 positives, so I'm giving it a go (wish me luck lol).

Went to visit a friend from chapel and whilst I was there, her mum asked me if I'd play for a group that she was chair of on the 26th September, I said I would.

Then did a bit of shopping, during which I got a phone call from an organ playing colleague of mine. He was booked to play for a party last night but had been struck with a "poorly tummy" and couldn't do it, so could I? I said yes and rushed home, changed and went to play (bit jealous, his organ's bigger than mine......ahem) .

There's a storm abrewing outside now so I think I'll leave it at that.

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As you good people who have read my previous posts will know, I've payed a couple of visits to hospital about my damaged arm. The therapists there went through a list of what I can and can't do, and one of those things was shopping. I have a great deal of trouble carrying shopping with this arm and so they suggested to me that I use a supermarket delivery service which I thought was a very good idea.

Except that is until you try to use it!

There are only two in my area that provide it, Somerfield and Tesco. Tesco is out because they'll only do it if I order by net, and I don't have a credit card. Somerfield is a farce, they provide a service where you go and do your shopping at the store and pay for it as normal, then they deliver it which would suit me perfectly. However there are two Somerfields in the area, but the one that delivers is too far away for me to qualify for it. The other one is nearer but doesn't deliver, plus the fact that in 5 weeks, this one closes down anyway.

I may as well be living in the middle of nowhere.

Anyone else had trouble like this?

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Well I went to the funeral today, didn't react how I thought I would which worries me but at least it's over.

Not done much else at all today (obviously) so can't really put much more.

Went to karaoke last night, first time since my incident about a month ago. I was shaking and noticeably very quiet, hardly said anything to anyone. Sung one song but didn't enjoy it

So that's about it for now. I really hope to put something better in here soon.

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Didn't do much today. Had family as usual this morning, my niece showed me some more games on the net that she's been playing.........I was well and truly put in my place

Then went to pick up a coat that I'd taken to be repaired. They said that they couldn't do it until next Wednesday, but when I said that I would have liked it done for a funeral on Monday, they pulled it in so that I could pick it up today. Great service and you can't see where it needed mending......great job!!!

Just read Welshceltgirl's blog. She's posted tonight about shooting stars which are visible tonight and tomorrow night, but it's thick cloud here........typical I can't even see the planes that fly over every night tonight.

*sighs* Oh well!!!

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Well as you can see, I survived (just).

I ended up feeling very nervous and shaking. I could have played a lot better than I did, I was all over the place at times But everyone said that they enjoyed it and would come again, which was the main thing. There weren't many there either, 16 including me. I'm more used to playing to much larger numbers. A lot of people who said they'd come didn't, but all things considered I'm probably glad that there wasn't a lot more.

I have to play as usual on Sunday, then the funeral on Monday, so still plenty to think about.

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Not feeling too bad today (so far)

Well I had my review yesterday and it wasn't too bad. I had three people come for it, one was a mental health representative and the other two run the two groups I go to. They were very sympathetic about everything I've been (and going) through and were disgusted how I was treated the day I had my breakdown, but there is nothing they can do

Had the bride that I drove for visit this morning to show me the wedding photos. They were a lot of them and they were all very nice

Absolutely "bricking it" about tonight which is usual for me. I ALWAYS get nervous before performing, always have. But tonight I'm trying different slightly more up to date songs than I normally do and don't know quite how they'll go down (gulps!)

If I don't post later tonight or tomorrow, you'll know that I've been lynched by the local OAP vigilantes

Went last night and set the gear up (I'm sure that pleased the neighbours lol), so that's one less job today.

Well got to go go for a final rehearsal then get ready.

See ya! (hopefully)

Went yesterday and ordered the flowers for the funeral on Monday, since when did it cost so much to pay your respects? Anyway bought a sympathy card which I'll write and take before the day. So that's that done!

Checked my e-mails and found one from THAT woman AGAIN regarding the sing a long AGAIN. This time she was asking if I'd take another look at the words because she thought that a couple of them were "a bit long" NO THEY'RE NOT!!!

Not only is she telling me what to play, she's now telling me how to play them, as if I haven't got enough to think about. Who's doing this thing, me or her?

I'm doing this not because they asked me because they didn't. I volunteered to do this of my own free will and this is what I get......HASSLE! Never had this trouble from her before, well words will be said after this. It's bad enough I've got to do it being all happy and smiley when I don't feel like being without HER as well.

I have to do it now because the posters have gone out and it's even been announced on local radio.........ooh I'm a star Autograph hunters please form an orderly queue

So I sent a reply saying that they are fine as they are, then she sent me a copy of the full song sheets. She's made a couple of mistakes now, but I can't be bothered to say anything.

On top of that, I have my mental health review in about half an hour, so now I'm really going to enjoy that

Anyway sorry for firing off like this, but now my spleen feels well and truly vented.

Thank you for putting up with this

I knew it couldn't last

Had a great day yesterday and most of today. Only to find out that another great friend had suddenly passed away on Saturday night, again from cancer. So I've not long got back from seeing his family.

I am gutted

To make matters worse, the last time we met, we argued and I hadn't seen him since. He lost his temper with me (very unlike him) and I bit back. Now I realise that he losing his temper could have been caused by his illness, which even he didn't know he had.

Apparently, this one grows and grows until it explodes like a firework sending blood clots everywhere, and from that moment, death is very rapid. So at least he didn't suffer. He had suffered with his breathing for a while, but everyone put it down to his asthma, but now I suspect it was this tumor growing, I don't know

All I do know is that I have lost the person with whom I have had the longest friendship with, and whom I was proud to call my "second dad"

Rest in peace Terry, you will be sadly missed

Goodbye

Had a bit more active day today

Went to group this morning, we had an activity where every member took in their favourite piece of music and had it played, then everyone else had to guess who brought it. I said weeks ago that no-one would get mine, so today I took in a copy of Tears In Heaven sung by Betillo Arenallo. Only one person guessed it was me and I felt great that I'd beaten everyone else

Then when I got home, I had to wait for a service engineer to come.
I bought a new settee a couple of months ago and recently noticed that a seam had burst, so I told them about it. They sent this engineer and he said that it hadn't been sewn properly and I'd have to have a new cover, but he wanted a sample which should have been stapled on it somewhere. He looked but no sample so he went back and told them, they sent him back today to look again. We turned that settee upside down and inside out, still no sample. So he did what I suggested the first time and took the damaged cover.

While I was waiting I sent and answered some e-mails, one I received was VERY nice (thank you)

Then when he'd left, I went to the chapel to practice for my sing a long on Friday which I got on well with (for a change).

So a happier day than I've been having recently

Hmmm wonder how long it will last

See ya!

If you're a fan of Lord Of The Rings then you have GOT to see this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6YiOFHSf8w

Even if your not a fan check it out. I guarantee it is hilarious and so well made ROFL

I had a strange day today.

Had brother and his family round this morning, then watched the F1 qualifying. Don't remember much after that, fell asleep

Was woken up by my landphone ringing, someone sent me a blank message by accident, one of those mobile to landline text thingies.

Checked my e-mails and got one that made me slightly mad.
I'm playing for a sing a long on August 11th and the woman doing the printing wanted the list of songs early so that she could make sure that the words for the songsheets were correct. So I sent her the list last week.

Today (or yesterday now) she sent me an e-mail asking if I could send her the words. I'm playing 44 songs that night and she wants the words Also if I have to type the words out and send them to her, I might as well have done them anyway

The stresses of the performer eh?

Then been for a drink with a mate tonight, came home and now on here.

Can't explain it but felt very strange today. Had a breakdown last week so probably still feeling that, never had one before so don't know.

Oh well

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Had a boring day again today. Paid off my overdraft for the 50th time this year, then had to go shopping where I always encounter one of the biggest challenges of my life.......

SUPERMARKET TROLLEYS!!! or rather the people who use them.

I spent years blaming the trolleys for weaving all over the shop (literally) when all the time it's been the user. Honestly they should have a Highway Code and a test for using these things. I lost count today how many near misses I had, not to mention the ones who didn't miss OUCH!!! All because they don't look where they're going, I'll tell you I'm glad we don't pay insurance for using them.

Then you get the people who leave them in the middle of the aisle while they go off to find something the other end of the shop.

But the most worrying sight of all is when they've paid for everything, load a car and then get in the driving seat, OH NO they drive as well!!! HELP!!!

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I know that I've not posted for at least a week, but without going into detail I've had a very bad time

Suffice to say that my trust in the mental health system is rapidly disappearing after how I've been treated, and believe me when I have my review next week, they will know about it

Anyway I'm back now (groans) and ready to carry on blogging (I'm not firing on all cylinders but then I never have been)

So sorry for going awol but I'm now reporting for duty SIR!

See ya!