Well I've had a few bad days recently. I am trying to stay positive but I can't keep it up and today I had yet another sobbing fit in front of my counsellor.
I admit that it's good for you to cry, but all of this should have happened last year. Why is it taking so long to come out? I'm having lousy nights leading to me being tired all day, which in turn makes me more run down and depressed and at the moment the slightest thing is triggering me.
I'm crying for me, I'm crying for my mum and dad, I'm apologising to them for not being able to stop them dying, even though I know no-one not even the experts could stop it happening.
I'm so mixed up it's driving me mad. Got befriender coming tomorrow so I'll have a chat with him about it and see what he thinks.
Sorry to sound so miserable 
I promise to still try to be positive in these posts, but please bear with me. I'm not normally THIS bad.
Take care
